New Beginnings Emerging from the Mud

The lotus flower of our life experience begins to bloom from the seeming depths and dregs.  Here, now, is where I begin.  So much has taken place in 2014 that my head and heart and body and soul reel externally.

And yet, internally, something – many things – have changed forever.  There is a knowing, a peace, a stillness, that warms my heart and fills my being with love and light.  This influx is self-allowed.  The presence of simple being is the only reality and to access this place one only needs to give permission.

This is the trick that has been hidden from man for centuries.  It is each human’s sovereign right to be whole, at peace and full of love.  This knowing is the foundation for all else.  Last week, I participated in my first practice of Yoga Nidra in conjunction with the sounding of the 5 Tibetan seed syllables.  The Yoga Nidra facilitator, Michelle, used the words “inner refuge” as she moved us through awareness of focus on all areas of the body.  Inner refuge.  Inner refuge.  Inner refuge.  This is another truth that has been left out of most teachings.

What is this inner refuge?  This is who we are, who we always have been and who we will always be.  Inside our being, inside our heart is a knowing, a peace that surpasseth all understanding of our trained indoctrination to focus solely on the external – especially for solace and love.  Ahhh, the love and solace originates within our own being.  The power, strength and courage to be is self-generated.

I have always wanted to feel safe and protected.  Now, this day of 24 November 2014, I know with certainty that I am and always will be safe and protected for that is my reality.  There is no thing else.  We were trained to live, work and play in a web of illusion…a world that was never real or complete…a world external cut off from Nature, and more damaging, cut off from self.  We had to be someone else to win or receive approval and acceptance it seemed.  There are a few who held on to their native ability to feel good on their own.  However, I, like most, was driven to receive peace from approval and acknowledgement from others or society.

Empty and anxious, I was hypnotized into struggle and fear.  There can never be peace if you are trying to force life or yourself into being something that you are not.  It has taken more than a year for me to halt the artifice, halt the addiction of wanting to fit in and be accepted.  Hopefully, for others, the disentangling from illusion will be much swifter.  Almost all, well really all, that I was taught and accepted as truth from society was illusion – weaving a web of an artificial life that needed constant attention (to include fear and anxiety) to unsatisfactorily sustain.  It is not and will never be possible to create an artificial life based on illusions of the mind.  It has taken this time more than a year to reconnect to being, the simplicity of connecting to my life force and Nature.

Go within and explore who you are.  Go within and activate love for yourself – your emotional, physical, mental and spiritual aspects.  Go within and balance light and shadow.  Go within and embrace all that you are.  Know that you are as whole and perfect as you were when you took your first breath – healthy, pure and powerful.  Connect from this space to the earth, to Nature, to the majesty of life all around you.  This is life.  This is real.

All else is illusion.  If there is fear, a need to force; if there is anxiety or confusion, be patient and still for a moment.  Go within, connect with love and peace.  Then look again.  Feel again.  There is only love and peace.  We have been trained to create illusion in lieu of connecting with our strengths, our powers and connecting with all life on this Earth.  All is as it should be.

Not sure where I am or what I am moving toward.  Me, the I am inside my physical vessel, is connected to the highest and best in the Universe and at peace with all that is.  I am so grateful for this life.  I trust myself and the Divine guidance and I surrender to the highest and best in this moment and all that is.  I am grateful for all that is and send blessings out from my inner refuge.  These blessings are seeds that add to the beauty of life for all beings on this beautiful blue green planet.


Time to Time to Time to…

Well now. How long must I wait to communicate…How long to wait to mix and mingle with no mask and no fear of being near someone or them being in my house or being at another’s house or in a car or any enclosed space. How long till we trust each other again and want to be in each other’s company. Looks like shots are not the solution. Trust is I hope. Trust and surrender…having the courage to live and surrender fear. Yep, it is time to…at least for me. First, I am going to step up and express my opinion. I am using my space here to do so. All are welcome here and if you do not care for what I have to share, well I wish you the best and you do not have to visit.

Keep what works for you, what you find inspiring and warms your heart. Let the rest go. We agree to disagree.

I recognize it is not possible to please everyone and that it is possible to please myself. That’s what I will be doing.


Points to Ponder

From St. Ethelburg’s site, these words are all right.

Justine Huxley writes: 
“St Ethelburga’s principles include seeking opportunity in crisis, and putting values into action.  Countless times we have told the story of how the Bishopsgate bomb taught us how renewal can emerge from conflict, and how our patron saint, confronted by the horror of the plague, chose selfless action above self-preservation.  

So as coronavirus sweeps across the world, how will we walk our talk?  

Recognising both the potential for suffering the virus is bringing  (whether lost livelihoods, the risk of economic crash and recession, sickness or the loss of vulnerable loved ones) as well as the potential for unecessary panic and hype – as a community, we are beginning a dialogue about how we approach what is unfolding through the lens of our core values. 


Ethelburga gave us a role model of someone who put her own needs aside to serve others.  Whilst heeding medical advice responsibly, we also want to watch ourselves to see where primitive impulses to hoard pasta and toilet paper can be overridden by deeper values that seek fulfilment in service to others.  As we begun this conversation,,a colleague shared with us the Bishop of St Albans’ coronavirus ‘golden rules’ – aspirations to live by our faith, rather than by self-interest. Bishop Alan Smith’s invitation includes thinking about our neighbours, phoning or checking in on the isolated, not demonising any ethnic groups, sharing rather than stockpiling, and living life to the full – choosing trust and openness over fear. (4)  How vital that these voices are heard amid the onslaught of panic-stricken news!   


One obvious opportunity we are being shown is some of the behaviours we need to transition to a zero carbon economy.  A month ago, humanity was struggling to commit to the rapid change needed to stay under two degrees of global heating.  Now we find out just how quickly our attachment to air travel can be put aside. When the motivation is there, meetings can be conducted online and holidays can be relinquished.  As has been widely reported, China’s greenhouse gas emissions have dropped by a quarter (1). While the hardship and tragedy involved are not a desireable route, staying local and consuming less could be a valuable lesson.

Positive impacts may also emerge for biodiversity.  As China’s government temporarily bans the trade and consumption of wild animals as part of their ongoing efforts against the epidemic, we move closer to seeing an end to the illegal wildlife trading that has brought animal populations like pangolins and civets to the brink of extinction. (2)  

Hidden benefits?

China has also shown us the impact of working patterns on carbon emissions , giving weight to the campaigns for reduced working hours. A global recession may present a real barrier to the political will for ecological goals or it may reconcile us to the fact that decarbonisation is going to be painful whatever way we approach it, and that human populations need controlling – whether we do that willingly or have Earth wisdom do it for us.

If we enter into the challenges consciously, the willingness to for some of the current changes might endure. An entire labour force commuting four times a week instead of five would make a significant dent in both pollution and emissions, and research has shown that reducing working hours actually increases productivity. (3)  Maybe there is a message in there about how transition might not just be bleak sacrifice, but could yield hidden benefits. What else could we discover when we disrupt ingrained assumptions behind our extractive work ethics? What happens when are forced to slow down and prioritise our local neighbourhoods and a simpler way of life?  


If London goes into lock down, we will be thinking as a team about how we can embrace that change.  Can the disruption to ‘business as usual’ help us reprioritise how we live our mission to reflect the needs of the time?   Can we let patterns fall away that may have outlived their relevance? Can we use time away from events and outputs to deepen our strategic thinking or enable a new relationship between contemplation and action?   (And we recognise many do not have the priviledge to approach it this way). 

Deep adaptation 

The links between pandemics and climate breakdown have long been known.   Changes to weather patterns and ecologies change the dynamics of infection (6).  There will be more new diseases, and more existing diseases behaving differently. These are part and parcel of the global imbalance we are creating and will be yet another challenge we need to meet with resilience and the full passion of our ingenuity and our deepest values.   

St Ethelburga’s has increasingly oriented all its leadership programmes towards building resilience.  Building strong bonded communities across diverse faiths and cultures, we have become adept at not shying away from worst case scenarios, walking the pathways of collapse in our imaginations as a rigourous inner and outer preparation. What some would label pessimism, for us is about ringing loud the bells that will wake us up, a call to summon the full depths of our courage and spirituality and apply everything we have to this time of ‘great losing and great opening’ (5).  


China built a hospital from scratch in 7 days. That is something the powers that be would tell us is ‘unrealistic’. But it was necessary and it was done. This fact has stayed with me. It reminds me too, of another more personal memory. When I was younger, I successfully vaulted an iron gate that I knew was ‘impossible’, because danger was present and need of the moment demanded it. We need to know in our bones what commitment and decisive action can achieve. Because there is much change to make.


As one of my colleagues pointed out in our resilience planning meeting this morning, coronavirus invites us into a new, intimate awareness of our global interconnectedness.  We breathe the same air, touch the same surfaces, connect via a billion invisible tracks across Planet Earth. We are indivisble from each other. As we surf the challenges before us, the real question is can we recognise the deeper opportunity behind it. That this knowing, born from tragedy, that reveals our interbeing might be a dark but ultimately merciful teacher – a doorway into a new relationship with each other and with our Earth. “

Justine Huxley, CEO, St Ethelburga’s Centre 

#OpportunityInCrisis #ValuesIntoAction #DeepAdaptation #RadicalResilience

Opportunity in Crisis – a short film 
Values into Action – a short film 
Deep adaption at St Ethelburga’s 
Radical resilience at St Ethelburga’s


1.  News Republic, Coronavirus lessons for climate change 

2.   BBC, China wildlife trade ban should be permanent 

3. Guardian, Four day week, trial finds lower stress and higher productivity 

4. The Bishop’s coronavirus golden rules

5. Phrase first coined by Vince Knowles, Associate of St Ethelburga’s and strategist for XR Money Rebellion.  

6.   As Kris Murray of EcoAlliance writes,  “A really important message that we advocate is that protecting the environment will help protect ourselves from a range of natural disasters, including disease,”   

Another Sharing and Sincere Gratitude for These Words

From Corona Virus to Consciousness 

With the widespread panic of pandemic flu in the air, whether creating the anticipated perception of illness in your mind to fight, track, and avoid, or experiencing symptoms that have you more sincerely worried for your wellbeing than ever before, there is always an equal opportunity to allow any form of collective hysteria to act as wake up calls to greater consciousness — within you and the planet.

Although perhaps not visible to most, this outbreak is evidence of how quickly consciousness is already waking up worldwide. I am not suggesting that due to consciousness awakening, a dormant virus known as Corona has manifested in many lives. What I can point out is how clearly the narrative of this global news story has put a lot of people into a constant state of fear. When steeped in fear, you enter survival mode where you must rely on the impulses and demands of your ego versus the instincts of your evolving soul’s wisdom. While I affirm the ‘fear of pandemic’ is more of a pandemic than perhaps any virus could be, there is no doubt that an outbreak of fear has entered our local and collective atmospheres. Thankfully, it will be unable to slow the progress of an awakening consciousness that cannot be opposed or denied. The faster consciousness wakes up, the more it speeds up the fabric of time. The faster the fabric of time speeds up, the less opportunity there is for fear to operate with any degree of influence over our awakening consciousness.

Using this notion of time distortion, the unconscious patterning of fear stays in power when the fabric of time slows. As the fabric of time slows, progress halts. The only way the fabric of time slows is when the evolution of consciousness is paused in some way. And, of course, the only means through which this occurs is when human beings align with fear.

I am not saying there isn’t a coronavirus. I’m just very clear on its highest purpose. The fabric of time is a constant ticking mechanism of measurement, and yet, within each passing moment is a field of infinite spaciousness that can be molded to match the whim of intention. This means a clock never stops ticking, but you can either slow or speed up the ticking of time to allow days to pass as seconds or seconds to span the dawn of days. And yet, this slowing of time can only occur, if humanity is more aligned with fearing the worst, than utilizing this climate of uncertainty as a space through which the consciousness of all continues to unite and awaken as One. So how do you use this pandemic of fear as a catalyst for greater conscious awareness? Just as many are using herbal remedies to address the onset of any symptom, from a vibrational perspective, our first line of defense is gratitude. First, I’ll explain why this is such an effective tool and then provide an interactive mantra to help you anchor its frequency throughout your field.

In order for gratitude to be a remedy for fear, it has to be opposite of fear in some way. Since fear is the withholding of your light, gratitude is the willingness to share your light for the benefit of yourself and wellbeing of others. Such a shift occurs through the cultivation of courage. Just as courage is the feeling of owning the beauty of your own inherent power, fear is a sensation felt when your power has been given to something artificial or outside of the effect of your will. Because gratitude contains a felt sense of celebration, through the expression of gratefulness, you are, in fact, stripping anything of the power you unknowingly gave away and reclaiming it as the embodied courageous presence of your soul.

In order to anchor the vibration of gratitude, it must be authentic in its expression. The only reason fear plays such a powerful role in anyone’s life is due to how authentically afraid anyone is capable of being. Here are some real world examples of how you can authentically choose gratitude, even during uncertain times like these: Now more than ever, people are covering their mouths when coughing and washing their hands on a regular basis. Without needing fear as a motivator, we can be grateful that such a virus has inspired a greater mindfulness in cleansing ourselves and being mindful of the purity of other people’s space of experience. While many schools have temporarily closed, it gives families opportunities to come together and receive the emotional support that allows such a pivotal moment in Earth’s Ascension to highlight the importance of cultivating each relationship to its highest frequency of resonance. Even for those who can’t afford childcare, there have been many teenagers in Washington state who have organized to offer free babysitting while parents go to work in support of their families.

While there is obviously a strong vibration of mass hysteria, many are stopping to ask deeper existential questions that wake each of us up out of the narrative of a dying matrix, swiftly moving us over into parallel timelines of rapid growth, acceleration, and expansion. While the matrix of an outdated paradigm was created as ‘patterns of doing’ to such an unconscious degree, this made it nearly impossible for any sentient being to pause throughout the day and realign with Source in moments of restorative beingness, our daily rhythm of ‘do, do, do’ has been interrupted by an opportunity to dive headfirst into an inner dimension of being, where there is nowhere to go, no one to be, and nothing to do but connect, align, grow, and expand during this pivotal time of rebirth. When you or someone you know is not so mesmerized by the changes taking place, these important times can be used as opportunities to get to know who you are emotionally and vibrationally, which helps align the subtle bodies of your energy field into greater harmonic concordance.

Lastly, when you express gratitude, you are acknowledging the presence of something as inherently containing value. Beyond each perception of how something contains value in the outer world, the prime value in anything, including the coronavirus is the consciousness dwelling within it. When you react fearfully to any form, you are subconsciously asking that form to stay informed, so you can continually respond fearfully towards it. If not wishing to react fearfully to any particular form, we implement the vibration of gratitude to courageously acknowledge the value of consciousness within it, which creates a deeper relationship between you and the form in view. When aligning with the consciousness of any form, through moments of gratitude, as co-creators of our reality, you are commanding the form in view to become its highest consciousness, which in this example, would invoke the coronavirus to dissolve back into its original form of pure eternal light. 

To support your strongest immune system, wake up out of the matrix of fear, and reclaim the glory of your long-awaited courage, clarity, consciousness, and power, please repeat the following words:

“Thank you coronavirus for being the wake up call this world has needed. Even just the fact that I am saying thank you and coronavirus in the same sentence is already helping me dissolve spiritual superstitions that claim I’ll manifest what I speak out loud. Of course, such fanciful thinking could only be the inner workings of fear disguised as spiritual concept, and if I needed this type of pandemic environment to fully wake up, then so be it.

Thank you coronavirus for the mindfulness being instilled in so many beings. As we wash our hands, may we cleanse our realities from broken paradigms of corruption. As we explore more time for ‘being’ than lifetimes of endless ‘doing’, may the world take pause from unhealthy habits of survival mode to explore life from a deeper state of peace, harmony, and oneness. As friends and families come together, may this bring neighbors and communities together in intended peaceful assembly as our new 5D earth continues to be birthed in the glory of my awareness and presence.

Thank you gratitude for showing me how to create relationships with the consciousness in all forms, so not to be hypnotized by the power I unknowingly give to things outside of me. Thank you gratitude for showing me that the power of my perception is stronger than any pandemic of fear. In knowing it is so, I allow all patterns, characters, and agendas of scarcity, victimhood, fear, abuse, survival mode, greed, and corruption to be cleared out of my energy field, returned to the Source of its origin, transmuted completely, and healed to completion now. From this moment forward, as the co-creator of my reality, I command all power I unknowingly gave away to be swiftly returned to my energy field, I strengthen my immune system with higher frequencies of embodied integrated light, as I transmute the echo of unconscious form by acknowledging and praising the consciousness within it.

Because the consciousness of all is the consciousness I AM, I allow each moment of gratitude to return each form in view to the purity, holiness, and perfection of eternal light, now that I am ready, willing, and able to step forward as the truth and transmission of Source in form. May this intention heal my being, uplift each circumstance, and transform reality for myself, my family, my relationships, my friends and neighbors, for humanity at large and beyond.

Thank you gratitude for transforming coronavirus back into light. Thank you for reminding me the power that is always within me. And so I’m healed, transformed, and reborn as the light of consciousness I AM now.”

As we remember the word, ‘Corona’ means crown, we are undergoing a radical process to en-sure the fabric of time remains accelerated to restore balance and consciousness in every heart. As each of us reclaim the power of our crowns, we are taking back the throne of Heaven’s kingdom from a patterns of imbalance and unconscious addictive cycling that was only designed by the highest consciousness to be the very catalyst of awakening waking up within you. It doesn’t have to be done with aggression or fear, but with the courage of your highest truth that relates to the consciousness in things, no matter how anything seems or appears.

This is what it means to wake up from the matrix. If you are reading these words, I can confirm your waking up is well underway. Instead of fearfully interacting with uncomfortable feelings, physical symptoms, or scary news headlines, let’s us employ the power of gratitude to unite with the consciousness in each form, so to transform it back into light by honoring the value it offers. 

On behalf of the Universe, the Akashic Records overseeing the Earth’s Ascension, and all Galactic Councils holding space for the awakening sovereignty of each sentient being, I am here with you every step of the way. 

Victory to the light I AM now.

All For Love,

Matt Kahn

Sharing Beauty in a Poem by Another


Yes there is fear.
Yes there is isolation.
Yes there is panic buying.
Yes there is sickness.
Yes there is even death.
They say that in Wuhan after so many years of noise
You can hear the birds again.
They say that after just a few weeks of quiet
The sky is no longer thick with fumes
But blue and grey and clear.
They say that in the streets of Assisi
People are singing to each other
across the empty squares,
keeping their windows open
so that those who are alone
may hear the sounds of family around them.
They say that a hotel in the West of Ireland
Is offering free meals and delivery to the housebound.
Today a young woman I know
is busy spreading fliers with her number
through the neighbourhood
So that the elders may have someone to call on.
Today Churches, Synagogues, Mosques and Temples
are preparing to welcome
and shelter the homeless, the sick, the weary
All over the world people are slowing down and reflecting
All over the world people are looking at their neighbours in a new way
All over the world people are waking up to a new reality
To how big we really are.
To how little control we really have.
To what really matters.
To Love.
So we pray and we remember that
Yes there is fear.
But there does not have to be hate.
Yes there is isolation.
But there does not have to be loneliness.
Yes there is panic buying.
But there does not have to be meanness.
Yes there is sickness.
But there does not have to be disease of the soul
Yes there is even death.
But there can always be a rebirth of love.
Wake to the choices you make as to how to live now.
Today, breathe.
Listen, behind the factory noises of your panic
The birds are singing again
The sky is clearing,
Spring is coming,
And we are always encompassed by Love.
Open the windows of your soul
And though you may not be able
to touch across the empty square,

Fr. Richard Hendrick, OFM
March 13th 2020

Art: Daniel Holman

Wow. How to Deal with Fear

Wow. How do I deal with fear?

Fear is being foisted or rather forced upon us all at this time

Fear is dumped on us like trash = I feel drenched with it and yet…

I remember myself and

I breathe

I breathe in the air that brings life and oxygen into my body

And I exhale with the carbon dioxide all that is not mine

I exhale with a deep sigh all the fears, doubts and worries inside me for transmutation

I remember some words from Clarissa Pinkola Estes that

“We were built for these times”

I know this is true throughout my being and in the core of my soul.

We were built for these times

And I breathe again in this truth

And I exhale all that does not serve

I remember myself in my body

My feet remind me I am connected to the Earth – our Mother

I ground myself to the Center of the Earth

I reach up and connect with the Divine

I Center in my Heart

Trusting myself

Trusting life

I surrender all that was before and

I open to this moment now – free of fear full of Love and Light.

12/3/20 Blessings, Elizabeth

Clues and Practice

If I am out of alignment I am shown and I observe

When life is seemingly difficult, I am learning

To breathe, relax and open

To receive guidance

I breathe, relax and open

So as to be clear to listen

There is a flow, a knowing that comes from silence

Silence in my mind and stillness in my body

Still waters help me to go deep

Deep into the unknown

Here, I can taste and breathe the potential.

We are in uncharted waters now.

Most, if not all, needs to be re-examined

Kept if useful and release otherwise.

We are ready to be born anew.

26/2/20 Blessings, Elizabeth

Inspired – After a Beautiful Meditation at the Findhorn Foundation

Two weeks ago here at Findhorn Foundation, we had an internal conference for coworkers to join together as one.  One morning, as we gathered together, there was a guided meditation for us to go deep into our reasons for being at the Foundation and to go deeper still into what wanted to come forth from the transformational field here.  We were asked to go into the space where creation begins.  It was cool.  The following words came through me after…Blessings to us all.


Before we speak to each other

with each other

for each other

in circle

Let us take the time to connect

To breathe in the moment

To become present

in our bodies

in the space and place in which we find ourselves.

Let us move our energy into our hearts

and rest in this Love – this powerful fire that nourishes our whole being.

Let us rest in this Love that is Life and

Let us go deeper

Let us go deeper

and deeper still

Beyond words

Shedding concept



Releasing and surrendering ALL that has come before this moment now.

Let us go deeper

To rest for a time

Into the unknown – where Love and Light are born, live and die

Let us rest for a time together in the unknown

To listen

Without words




Here we are together and

When we emerge

Let us speak from our hearts

26/2/20 Blessings, Elizabeth

Moving Forward into the Unknown and Stuff

As we move forward, I recognize my way of being is changing.  All of the mental constructs I made to deal and survive the world of humans – that was all I knew or, shall I say, all that I was expected to learn.

All of the mental is crumbling and has even for awhile.  So much no longer serves that I ask:

“What is useful to me – in this moment – NOW?”

“What is useful when there is a trigger that alarms me, that screams fear or anger or doubt, worry or confusion?”

The practice true for me now is to move into my heart…and return to my heart…over and over and over again.

i am responsible for my own spiritual practice and accountable only to myself and my relationship with the Earth and the Divine.

There is no judgment, no rule, no expectation.  I am that I am in each moment.

I am as I am in each moment.

I accept and trust and love myself as I am in each moment.

It is in this way that I am practicing. Being.  Just being.  Open.  Alert.  With respect and kindness for myself and others as I am.  (which is not always great…but there you go.  I trust and observe what is.)


Land Blessing Ceremony using the Seven Element (AODA) Framework

The Spring Equinox is coming. Life is waking up all around us. Perfect time to tune in and seek permission from the land around you (or a piece of the land around you) to offer a blessing. When you get the go ahead, this post provides a respectful way. Blessings.

The Druid's Garden

Loving the Land Loving the Land (Earth Element card from the Plant Spirit Oracle!)

Last week, I provided an overview of the AODA’s seven-element system.  I have worked with this system as my primary magical and energetic practice for almost 15 years and have found it to be an extraordinarily flexible and engaging approach to working with the land, the spirits of nature, and providing blessing and healing to the land. Thus, today’s ritual is a land blessing ceremony, with both solitary practitioner and group variants.

Many traditional land blessing ceremonies include using some form of energy (in our case, the seven elements) to bless and protect a space. This ceremony draws upon the energy of the seven directions for blessing and healing.  This ceremony is ideally done walking the perimeter of a piece of land you want to protect.  If you aren’t able to walk a perimeter of the space due to…

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Link to Article on Healing “Mother Wound”

Today, I just read a really cool article for me on healing the Mother Wound.  I am really on a journey here and thought I would share with you another step in my process.  This article is from Bethany Webster at

Maybe it will resonate with you also.  Cheers!

Intimacy, the Inner Mother and the Awakened Masculine