The lotus flower of our life experience begins to bloom from the seeming depths and dregs. Here, now, is where I begin. So much has taken place in 2014 that my head and heart and body and soul reel externally.
And yet, internally, something – many things – have changed forever. There is a knowing, a peace, a stillness, that warms my heart and fills my being with love and light. This influx is self-allowed. The presence of simple being is the only reality and to access this place one only needs to give permission.
This is the trick that has been hidden from man for centuries. It is each human’s sovereign right to be whole, at peace and full of love. This knowing is the foundation for all else. Last week, I participated in my first practice of Yoga Nidra in conjunction with the sounding of the 5 Tibetan seed syllables. The Yoga Nidra facilitator, Michelle, used the words “inner refuge” as she moved us through awareness of focus on all areas of the body. Inner refuge. Inner refuge. Inner refuge. This is another truth that has been left out of most teachings.
What is this inner refuge? This is who we are, who we always have been and who we will always be. Inside our being, inside our heart is a knowing, a peace that surpasseth all understanding of our trained indoctrination to focus solely on the external – especially for solace and love. Ahhh, the love and solace originates within our own being. The power, strength and courage to be is self-generated.
I have always wanted to feel safe and protected. Now, this day of 24 November 2014, I know with certainty that I am and always will be safe and protected for that is my reality. There is no thing else. We were trained to live, work and play in a web of illusion…a world that was never real or complete…a world external cut off from Nature, and more damaging, cut off from self. We had to be someone else to win or receive approval and acceptance it seemed. There are a few who held on to their native ability to feel good on their own. However, I, like most, was driven to receive peace from approval and acknowledgement from others or society.
Empty and anxious, I was hypnotized into struggle and fear. There can never be peace if you are trying to force life or yourself into being something that you are not. It has taken more than a year for me to halt the artifice, halt the addiction of wanting to fit in and be accepted. Hopefully, for others, the disentangling from illusion will be much swifter. Almost all, well really all, that I was taught and accepted as truth from society was illusion – weaving a web of an artificial life that needed constant attention (to include fear and anxiety) to unsatisfactorily sustain. It is not and will never be possible to create an artificial life based on illusions of the mind. It has taken this time more than a year to reconnect to being, the simplicity of connecting to my life force and Nature.
Go within and explore who you are. Go within and activate love for yourself – your emotional, physical, mental and spiritual aspects. Go within and balance light and shadow. Go within and embrace all that you are. Know that you are as whole and perfect as you were when you took your first breath – healthy, pure and powerful. Connect from this space to the earth, to Nature, to the majesty of life all around you. This is life. This is real.
All else is illusion. If there is fear, a need to force; if there is anxiety or confusion, be patient and still for a moment. Go within, connect with love and peace. Then look again. Feel again. There is only love and peace. We have been trained to create illusion in lieu of connecting with our strengths, our powers and connecting with all life on this Earth. All is as it should be.
Not sure where I am or what I am moving toward. Me, the I am inside my physical vessel, is connected to the highest and best in the Universe and at peace with all that is. I am so grateful for this life. I trust myself and the Divine guidance and I surrender to the highest and best in this moment and all that is. I am grateful for all that is and send blessings out from my inner refuge. These blessings are seeds that add to the beauty of life for all beings on this beautiful blue green planet.
With all of the moves that I have made in the past 10 years, the books that I have collected have come with me.
Lately, they are a powerful source of inspiration. A book or its title will catch my eye and when I consciously act on the prompt to pick up that tome, I do so and am in awe and amazed each time at the page and paragraph I turn to.
When I allow, the “invisible” makes sure that I have what is needed in each and every moment. With a book, the author speaks direct to me and to my heart.
There is a heart resonance and gratitude along with the awe and amazement. For example, this morning Joseph Weed’s Wisdom of the Mystic Masters from 50 years ago – 1968 – is a rich fecund source of inspiration. Here we go, from page 89:
“This chapter would not be complete without comment upon the dissipation of energy. You have been told how to accumulate and increase your energy. You should also know how to conserve it. We all waste energy. If we only consumed energy by work we would all be completely healthy and would actually be capable of many times the amount of work we presently do. But we dissipate our precious energy in a thousand ways all unwise and most of them unnecessary. Here are a few big energy-consumers to avoid — worry, fear, resentment (guilt, shame too) and hurry. Each chews up large quantities of energy and I dare say you allow one or more emiotional parasites prey upon you. Remember, everything you turn your attention to is the recipient of some of your energy. You literally give it away. Sometimes you get part or all of it back, as when you admire and rejoice in the beauty of a flower or a sunset. Sometimes when you unselfishly care for another your dividends are greater than the energy you use. But far more often you dissipate it unnecessarily through your eyes and other senses. You look here or there sometimes out of curiosity and sometimes just because your attention is captured or demanded, and each time you give away something of yourself. Your eyes dissipate a grat deal of energy. A realization of this by teachers of old led them to instruct their pupils to fasten their gaze upon the tip of their nose when attempting to meditate. This has no value except to reduce the dissipation of the pupil’s energy and to help him keep his mind up on the seed thought. Of course, in our present living conditions it is impossible not to look. Usually our very lives depend upon this form of alertness. But when you have been made aware of the potential energy waste you can reduce it enormously. Think about this. You can make yourself a much more powerful person just by effecting an economy in this one department.”
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(above artwork and poetry by heather bauer) “this look of sorrow as she walked among the fires – it was familiar to him – he had felt that way when he was younger. how to talk about it, how to talk…
So, there is something in the air. Something new – fresher than fresh. There is something beyond precious that I have tasted in the rains this summer.
Can you feel it? Do you sense and taste the purity?
I had a dream during a rainstorm this past Monday. Amazing. The storm was a thundering all around calling me, calling to me, calling me to get up and out of bed. Calling me to come out and play. It was the middle of the night – or so I thought – so I said no way. I went back to sleep to dream. The dream got me to get up and my front door was open.
I was told to look outside that there was a white fog and you could not see any distance. Look outside. Look outside and I did. They were right, I could not see beyond the first tree and everything everywhere was white. The grass had a white frost and every green leaf coated in white. It was daytime and it was not cold. Everything was covered in a white frost. It was not cold. It was beautiful. Everything was coated in white – white frost and the air was white – white fog.
The storm was powerful special. Next time, I will be sure to get up and go out into the storm a bit as I have for the storms this summer. The storms this summer are amazing. Such gifts happening after record heat. The rain has been so refreshing. The rain has felt so important that I have been sure to go out and allow the rain to soak me.
After the dream during the electric rain storm this week, I was moved and I got quiet. I became still and I reached inside – moved inside my being. This life spoke to me and what it told me stopped me in my tracks and brought me to my knees in awe and amazement.
Brother, sister, the ice caps are melting. I live closer to the North Pole and I tell you this summer I have been tasting the waters melted. These waters have been frozen for millenia or longer. Frozen for thousand of years, these waters are freed in vapor that has moved out and down over the Pacific Ocean and then has swirled up and moved out over this continent and returned to this earth as rain. Primordial rain. Water so pure that we current humans have no concept or word for it. Taste the rain these days. Smell it. Breathe it in. It is precious. Such a precious gift that is so ancient and so new. Wow. The purity is a gift from our Mother Earth and Father Sun. This is a deal changer. So unexpected and so powerful. Purity released on a scale beyond measurement from water frozen in time before history. Awesome. Magical. A gift.
Fresh in presence every all new. Experience life at a resonant frequency. Moving along with the flow of sine waves. Being in coordination with Self, Nature and the Elements.
Seriously when I woke up this morning I was begging for mercy from the ridiculous and depressing thoughts in my mind. Done. Please. What do I need to do to complete this chapter? How can I love this moment? How can I surrender this moment, this situation, this thought?
Natural cosmic law operates and flows and does not necessarily speak English. Practice slowing down and being still to see all kinds of communication opportunities available with rocks and trees and dogs and the invisible helpers ever present. Mmmm. So simple to be. So important to keep it simple.
“Do not obstruct it through
judgment or hatred…(this) will
just like anything else
that arises in your experience
naturally reveal its own nature
it will dissolve
leaving what is true” A.H. Almaas
The practice of slowing down and the above is driving the mental ego mind insane. There really are no worries and the ego mind just cannot have that surely. In addition, connecting to the resonant frequencies in a joyous fashion creates a harmony that nurtures and sustains each participant but also that principle “when any two are gathered in my name there also am I” is so activated and the energy generated ripples out from the circle enlivening all in its path. Focus people and focus together to change the world. Follow synchronicities to strengthen your confidence in living in concert with the automagic chthonic alchemical energies. Step now into believing in yourself and the universe – all seeming outer elements support thee in all endeavors for the highest and best.
From wikipedia.org, Paul Gauguin painted this in 1897 and called his painting: “Where do we come from? What are we? Where are we going?” And I add what are we built for? We are energy generators – powerhouses when activated – and yet who dares to stand up and step into the awesomeness of humanness with the grace of love, consensus and understanding.
Exercise – Useful for Focus Practice
from Rob Brezny 18/1/14
“Some of your illusions seeped into you before you learned to talk. Others sneaked into you later, while you were busy figuring out how to become yourself. Eventually, you even made conscious choices to adopt certain illusions because they provided you with comfort and consolation.
There’s no need to be ashamed of this. It’s a natural part of being a human being.
Now here’s the good news: You have the power to shed at least some of your illusions in ways that don’t shatter your foundations.
To begin the process, declare this intention at noon every Sunday for the next six months: “I am calling on all the power I have at my disposal, both conscious and unconscious, to dissolve my illusions.”
Love the message below. These are the thoughts to be thinking and heartfelt visions to be making.
Humanity’s Team Email for Inspiration on Saturday, January 18th, 2014
~The Intenders of the Highest Good; Vision Alignment Project by Noel West
A Vision For The World
I intend to hold a vision for the world where the water and air are clean and refreshing. A world where all the oceans and the life within them are healthy. I intend a world where all life is valued and honored. I intend a world where humans help other humans for everyone’s greater good. I intend a world where the soil is rich and provides only healthy crops. I intend a world where peace is always the goal and community is more important than greed and power.
I intend a world where day after day and week after week humans are waking up to their true potential. I intend a world guided by love and compassion. I see a world where loving compromise is the way of the land. I intend to hold the vision where the light of love burns brightly and our enemies become our loved ones. I intend a world where everyone’s beautiful chakra colors shine and dominate the landscapes. I intend a world where the energy from Mother Earth shoots up from the ground and into the soles of everyone’s feet and fills them with vitality. I hold the vision that this sacred vitality light the entire planet. I hold the vision and intend that our beautiful planet shows the galaxy and the many universes how love and light can transform the dark. And finally, I intend the cells within every life form on earth pulsate with light, love and vitality.
Una visión para el mundo
Es mi intención de mantener una visión para el mundo, donde el agua y el aire están limpios y frescos. Un mundo en donde los océanos y la vida dentro de ellos es saludable. Es mi intención, un mundo donde la vida sea valorada y honorada. Es mi intención, un mundo donde los humanos ayudan a los humanos para el mayor bien de cada cual. Es mi intención, un mundo donde la tierra es rica y produce solo un sembrado saludable. Es mi intención, un mundo donde la paz es siempre el objetivo y la comunidad es mas importante que la codicia y el poder.
Es mi intención, un mundo en donde día tras día y semana tras semana los humanos despiertan su verdadero potencial. Es mi intención, un mundo guiado por el amor y la compasión. Veo un mundo en donde una amorosa promesa es la moneda corriente. Es mi intención mantener la visión de la luz del amor encendida brillosa y que nuestros enemigos se vuelvan nuestros amigos. Es mi intención, un mundo donde el maravilloso color de los chakras brilla y predomina en todos los paisajes. Es mi intención, un mundo donde la energía de la Madre Tierra se levanta desde el suelo a través de la planta de los piés de todos y los llena de vitalidad. Mantengo una visión que esta vitalidad sagrada ilumine el planeta entero. Mantengo la visión e intento que nuestro maravilloso planeta muestre a la galaxia y a los diferentes universos como el amor y la luz puedan transformar la oscuridad. Y finalmente es mi intención que las celulas de los cuerpos vivientes pulsen amor, luz y vitalidad.
Today’s beautiful picture was sent in by Violet Maya Burge (copyright).
What a summer! To England for a wedding. Stonehenge. Glastonbury (so very worthy) and Avebury too. And then there was London and Bath too with lots of English countryside. One day we started on a steam train and rode it along the Severn River. Got a glimpse of Glastonbury Tor from a distance and then went to the Wookey Hole. That’s why there is that picture below. I swear we all entered Alice’s rabbit hole and came out the other side. Wookey Hole is a really cool ancient Neolithic (?) cave at the base of a really tight box canyon. Perfect spot for the cave man and woman. Shelter, spring water and when man goes out – he brings the bacon directly to the home. Mmmm. England – a perfect holodeck journey like on Star Trek. I sincerely believe that you experience what you are ready for in that magical space. Monumentally wonderful. Then July 29 planetary alignments, Lion’s Gate, Peace Portal. Oh my. Then abrupt job shift. What next? I surrender all fear, doubt and worry to be released and transformed into light. I am slowing down, breathing in my environment, grateful for all and to all. This is an excellent opportunity. I can feel it. In partnership with life, spirit, nature, the elements and all who serve the light I am. I am in partnership with life, spirit, nature, the elements and all who serve the light. We communicate with the vibration of love.
Making a lot of connections lately. The coolest part is asking a question inside and then receiving an answer. I tell you it’s true – if something, some area around you gets your attention – follow through. Picked up a book like that on Friday and three (3) key questions that I had been holding for many, many years are answered and done. Wow.
So. This morning, I remembered a play I saw in New York City on stage about making a live radio show. Do not remember the name of the play – set in Ireland… What is important to me now is the setting of that stage.
A microphone in the center of the stage with a stand holding the script. Along the side of the stage are about 6-7 chairs.
At any given moment during the course of moving the script – an actor or actors
stand before the microphone
deliver their lines
wait until next turn
Today, I share an “A-Ha!!” moment. This is a new level of energy pattern and process.
For months now, the flow of life moving through me has been whispering “Be still.” “Stop.” “Surrender.” “Breathe.”
The human in me wants to add listen and that’s when the radio play memory came to the fore.
As a human being, we should relax quite a whole lot into what we experience for we are only playing a small part – like one of the actors in a radio play. The rest of the time – which could be a lot – the requirement is to be still and quiet and, I think I can add the requirement is to listen and to observe. Nature is our textbook. What is happening now in your – this moment – is what is real. Center yourself in your being. Fill your heart with love and breathe in your environment. When it is your turn, follow the promptings and step up. You will know if you are still and alert to that still small voice inside.
So what is helpful to me in using the set on a stage for a radio play with a microphone in the center and a stand with the script with 6-7 seats on the side, also with scripts and stands.
As a human, I am part of the team of Nature and of Light. Other members of the team life forms include: two-legged, four-legged, winged ones, those with fins, the elements, the angels, the Devas. There are always Devas present in all moments everywhere. The elements take at least one seat on the stage. Nature, all embodiments has a seat. Angelic realm. It seems like there is one open seat that is beyond my imagining – welcome to all who serve the Light. And, let’s see, a seat shall always be reserved for Commander Ashtar and Ashtar Command.
Humans are part of an ensemble cast — this is not a one-man show – this is not a one life-form show.
Nature told me once “You create. You vision. We manifest. We maintain the form and make all things so.” It all starts to make more sense. Humans are tasked with setting out the vision. Then, we stop. Sit down. Take our place and watch as manifestation unfolds. There is a relaxation here with the seating of this realization within my heart. I am not alone. I do not have to figure everything out down to the last detail nor do I have to do it all myself nor do I need a bunch of people around me or other humans to do stuff. I hope to remember to always set an extra place at the table (or two – one invisible) every time we gather as humans for a meal or a conversation. There is always room for those who serve the Light at my table. We expand our horizons. Peace, love and light to all this fine day.
“What is most important is invisible to the eye…” from St. Antoine-Exupery’s The Little Prince.
It started with a quick call to David – could tell somethin’ was comin’ and then an online speech by Dave Grohl. Then, it was 4 segments on You Tube video about comedian Bill Hicks. Lee Harris and his english Shaman friend were next with an amazingly strong finish with “Abraham” through Esther and __ Hicks. We are in some powerful times.
Bill Hicks was really my favorite bit. He starts off with “Life is a ride”…don’t be afraid of or worry about anything anytime. Life is a dream and you would not be here if you were not absolutely taken care of and protected with love. And also the deal about not letting his audience off of the hook as told by a colleague comedienne – I think she is in part 3 of 4.
Bill Hicks from Jan 26, 2008
The World is like a ride in an amusement park, and when you choose to go on it you think it’s real, because that’s how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and round and round, and it has thrills and chills and is very brightly colored, and it’s very loud. And it’s fun, for a while.
Some people have been on the ride for a long time, and they’ve begun to question, ‘Is this real, or is this just a ride?’, and other people have remembered, and they’ve come back to us and they say ‘Hey, don’t worry. Don’t be afraid, ever, because this is just a ride.’ and we KILL THOSE PEOPLE.
“Shut him up! We have alot invested in this ride! SHUT HIM UP! Look at my furrows of worry. Look at my big bank account, and my family. This just has to be real.”
It’s just a ride.
But we always kill those good guys who try and tell us that. You ever noticed that? And let the demons run amok. But it doesn’t matter, because … It’s just a ride.
And we can change it anytime we want. It’s only a choice. No effort, no work, no job, no savings of money. A choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear wants you to put bigger locks on your door, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love, instead see all of us as one.
Here’s what we can do to change the world right now, to a better ride:
Take all that money we spent on weapons and defense each year and instead spend it feeding, clothing, and educating the poor of the world, which it would many times over, not one human being excluded, and WE CAN EXPLORE SPACE, TOGETHER, BOTH INNER AND OUTER, forever … in peace.
— Bill Hicks (1961 – 1994)
The other Hicks were even more spectacular in parts – particularly, of course – when Abraham is speaking through Esther. What about 1 hour and thirty minutes into the 3+ hour video.
A bunch of interweaving, interconnected technological input sources with a bit of music thrown in. Spring 2013 is sprung full of inspiration and interesting people.
It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work.
It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart. (Anonymous)
The man who removes a mountain begins by carrying away small stones.
“Don’t try to heal the old…
Build the New
Sing with Joy in Your Heart – Celebrating All That Is”